idiotic brainless bastards

okay , untuk orang orang yang 'baik sangat' sila lah jangan baca post blog saya ini kerana ia akan diselang selikan dengan perkataan perkataan lucah dan tidak sopan . jadi , silalah beredar .

eh korang ni bodoh ke bangang ke bengap ke bebal haa ? dah dia kata dia tak ambik , dia tak ambik ah . kau ingat kau besar sangat ah nak gertak gertak nak marah marah orang bagai ? BESAR SANGAT KE ? BODOH NAK MAMPUS ! kalau aku ada kat situ , aku dah ludah ludah muka sekor sekor . kau nak tuduh tuduh , kau ada bukti kukuh ke ? BODOH ! kalau kau rasa kau besar sangat , sini datang jumpa papa . tak pun , kau call je papa , papa cakap BILA BILA je dia boleh turun . kalau kau rasa memang dia ambik , kalau kau rasa kau pandai sangat sampai ada bukti bagai , sini datang . kimak babi betul perangai tikam kawan macam ni . pastu nak tuduh dia passing benda tu kat member dia pulak . padahal member dia innocent gila babs , baik nak mampus , takda buat menda menda macam ni . otak korang letak kat mana ? kat kepala buto korang kan ? patut ah pandai gila babs korang ni - NOT!

kau ni satu lagi pemakan babi ! sesuka tuduh orang ! bos besar tu tunggu masa je weh ! siap ah kau kalau kau buat hal lagi ! IDIOT ! kau nak melepaskan diri kau tuduh orang lain pulak ! wah wah wah ! kau bajet kau pandai ah ! silap besar la weh ! dia ada strong alibi la ! MWAHAHAHA ! padan muka tadi before sembahyang jumaat kena maki tepek dengan bos besar ! muka dah la macam babi hutan . perangai tu elok elok la sikit . karang silap silap haribulan kau transform jadi babi hutan terus ! bapak best boleh letak dalam kandang ! kau tu memang setaraf dengan babi hutan !

kau pulak , jangan bajet kau up sangat ! pergi ke neraka la weh !

Fine. I quit.

i thought we have this earnest understanding between us . but nope , i thought wrong . i thought you really did care . okay , that's partially correct i guess . but yeah , PARTIALLY . you made me think that you'd be there aaaaawwwllll the time . a humogous NO for that . i thought you'd make things better . and again NO . i thought you said you're better than that particular person . well , you guys are two very similar being actually . okay , whatevs , i think i've thought enough . i don't feel like typing my fucking fingers off because i'm fucking pissed . well actually , i don't deserve to be pissed at you . kan yang kan ? HA HA silly me . know what ? we should make clear to each other that this so-called-special-FRIENDship is not so special after all . so let's just stay with the you-are-just-one-of-my-friend-not-my-one-and-only-special-best-friend-i-can-depend-on connection . lets ? and please , don't make me turn back and repeat my foolishness , will you ? don't held me back like what you always did . it seems like our so-called-'fun'-world fell apart into two pieces and each pieces are trailing on the opposite orbit . can we try to synchronize ourself again and somehow patch our world together so that we can spin together again ? if you ask me , i'll answer "i'd do anything to work things out" . are you willing to do that ? god , i can't help to ponder . do you still care ? have your feelings changed ? if it did , then don't hold me back . lemme go . yeah , you might think that you're not holding me back . the usual "you are free to do anything" talk . but you're holding me back mentally . there're times when you're too cold that it broke me apart but there're also times that you're too warm you melt me to the ground . okay , shut the hell up , alya ! and mind yourself not to be one of those pathetically melancholic person like you-know-who haha (sorry , i can't help being sarcastic) . well , let's end this pathetic entry with a round of applause and award myself with the award for the most blunt judgement ever . yeay me !

Dear alep kulit heheh,

I'm sorry for acting like that . Thanks for being such a great friend . I promise I'll try not to do it again . To be honest , I was suprised that you cared that much about me . Thanks for standing by my side during hard times . It was nice knowing that you cared . Thank you . Mwahmwah .

straight from my heart,

nyitnyit hihihih

5th November 2009, 20:29:37

You're going to be fine okey..! I'm going to bury this story down tonight..! This does not mean I'm not mad at you..! I'm really really really mad at you..! (something private here)..! Remember I care about you..! And this time I'm extremely serious about it..!!! Next time,if you got a problem call me..! (something private here)..!

*a phone text from alep

ps. thanks to the other two 'superheroes' too. i love you guys so so so much. and the others too.

pps. i'm sorry for being such a troublemaker.

ppps. thanks for cleaning up my mess.

-_-

i don't know what i'm doing nowadays . and yeah, i'm doing things absent mindedly because i want my mind to be empty ? i'm just so blank . errr HAHA seeeee i'm babbling nonsensically . and HAHA this ; i don't do 'things' (like some 'people' does) when i'm dissapointed just to seek attention from people . i do 'things' to clear up my mind . so , people should just buzz off . don't act like you care when all this while you're doing the total opposite . a girl just wanna have fun heh heh . kan ?

dipshit

bodoh gila la shial aku ni . suka hati kau la . and don't act like you care if you don't . please .

and there's something i would want to emphasize ;

I'LL DO WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT IT .

ps. FYI , it hurts like hell